Inside myself is a place where I live all alone and that's where you renew your springs that never dry up.Pearl S. Buck
This quotes and others like it used to always puzzle me. Before integration, I felt so chaotic inside. After integration it took a while to get used to the quite. Now, I finally know what this means.
When I was little I had a "friend" I talked to in the mirror and in my 60s my NPs still talked about her as proof I was crazy! As an adult, I learned that lots of kids have imaginary friends or pets. At least they were nice to us!
ReplyDeleteI always thought that when multiplies got "better" they had to choose one personality and destroy/abandon the others. (Guess I've watched too many movies!) The term "integration" sound so much better! It sounds like you got to keep your friends.
You've definitely taught me a lot, Ruth.
Hugs P/M
(((P/M))) My friends helped me survive. I wasn't leaving anyone behind. I appreciated what my counselor told me, "When a child is raised in insanity, a child adapts." I think your parents still bringing up your childhood "friend" in your 60s is proof positive as to who was the problem and it wasn't you. :)
ReplyDeleteI use how comfortable I am with the quiet as a guide. "Be still and know that I am God."
ReplyDeleteHello Ruth
ReplyDeleteI can still remember the beautiful smiling face of my “real” mother; she would come to me at night, in the dark (when me and my siblings were locked in our bedroom.)
It's still a lovely memory.
Molly
Thank you Laurel. I like that for a guide.
ReplyDeleteMolly thank you for sharing your experience. Lovely memories are special.