I am slowly rebuilding my health. I am disappointed with how long I neglected myself and didn't do the things I know will help me feel better. Surveyed the damage. Putting routines back in place. Not holding a grudge against myself. Reassuring myself I can make healthy choices. I believe that sometimes in our desire to look on the bright side we refuse to look at the damage in our lives. Until I recognize the damage, I can't repair it. I stopped watching a house buying show because the house showed stress cracks in the upper house that hinted strongly the foundation was damaged. The guy bought the house anyway and the show was trying to get me to sympathize with the idiot for buying a badly damaged house then he is whining about how much it would cost to repair extensive damage. Duh!!! He refused to look at and accept the obvious damage. I think I was super irritated because I am refusing to look at my personal damage I did to myself for neglecting myself for the past year. I need to pray for my enemies....I would be praying for myself because I am my own worse enemy.