My dilemma, I have no idea where to start. I like the idea that self-confidence and self-esteem begin and end with me because that means I have control over it. I especially understand that I am not going to get it from outside myself. Even if I do get a compliment, I minimize it or turn it aside. One experience can illustrate why I struggle with this. When I graduated from high school, I did so in the top 5% of a class of over 500 students. My mother was quick to remind me that I may have graduated in the top 5% of my class but I wasn't as smart as my brothers. She assured me it was only because I worked harder, like hard work was some sort of dirty underhanded trick. I was so hurt at the time since I believed that finally I would be praised for something. WRONG! There seems to be some unwritten rule of narcissistics that all scapegoats must be ground down to emotional and mental nothingness. So how does someone become like the Facebook status shared by my friend?
Kiki asked the same question I did. How do I get self-confidence?
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She continues with the poem and song shared by her readers.
Then today is her declaration of Awesomeness:
I appreciate her sharing her progress. I do recommend you follow the link to her awesome new haircut.