Thursday, June 23, 2016

Thought I would catch up

I was on the road for 3 weeks.  I thought I would catch up this week...NOPE....I'm further behind.  I am isolating myself to get some major projects done because summer is flying fast in 5 more weeks I head back to school.  Every summer plan to get organized and caught up.  Every summer the time races by and I'm not caught up. 
Time management yes. 
Energy management yes
Anxiety management yes

The stuff I put off to summer are all the big stuff I can't handle while I am at school.  Apparently I don't handle them any better in the summer time.  Oh boy.....what to do.....what to do?  I don't want to throw in the towel.  I don't want to hide in a corner....running away seems kind of reasonable but I already did that for three weeks.  I had an awesome trip with my daughter and two grandchildren visiting other children and grandchildren.  What a wonderful trip.  I love it.  But now I have lists of things to do, none of which I have done.  Bummer. 


Tundra Woman said...

Glad you had a good get-away!

Is it fear of not being perfect that results in putting off "the big stuff?" It sounds like you're facing a massive mountain and thinking, "OHHH NO! How will I ever get over this?"
One step at a time.

Can you chunk these projects down and maybe limit the time to shorter periods you spend doing them? Not hours at a time, but half hours at most. Then go do something else-like veg-and get away from the project completely. It feels like you're being frog-marched to a tribunal who will decide on your "punishment" for performing such criminal behaviors as putting off a large project till summer and having an enjoyable couple weeks on YOUR VACATION, Ruth. Oh you baaad girl! ;-)

Ruth said...

Yep, I put off until they all lumped together, doctor appointments. I usually spread them out over the year but this was a weird year. I was so overwhelmed by work that I couldn't handle one more thing. Now I have yearly physical, brain tumor MRI, cancer check, and blood test all lumped together. Not the brightest plan but the one I inadvertently did to myself. I look at all the blogs on PTSD I need to catch up and feel over whelmed. Like you said, chunking it into more manageable pieces is a start. I am making progress on the home front of cleaning neglected areas of my house. I can actually see the results of my work now. Thanks for encouraging me TW. Later today I will make an appointment with one of my doctors. One is less intimidating that 3.