Tuesday, May 2, 2017
I actually got up and walked out. My mother is almost 90 years old and diagnosed with stage 4 dementia. To me, she treats me the same as ever but now she treats everyone else the same way. Today when I visited her in the care center, she immediately launched into her demands to go home. I am confronted with the demanding mother I remember from my teenage years. Her threats then of suicide if she didn't get the help she wanted then. In high school, I felt like I was running a constant balancing act of school, caring for mother and watching out that my mother didn't turn on my younger siblings. They are adults now. They can take care of themselves. Mother informed me today that she only used the threat of suicide to make us let her come home. Irony, it is her threats of suicide and unreasonable demands that are keeping her in the memory center. Today, after 15 minutes, she made move to get up, I stood up and left. It was a weird relief to hear her say, after all these years, the threats were idle threats used to manipulate me. Her emotional abuse succeeded when I was a teenager. Today, I left.