Sunday, March 19, 2017

Slippery Slope

I'm not in a good place right now.  I'm on a slippery slope but not yet in free-fall. Depression is a solution to anger which hides all my other emotions that I don't want to deal with.  I'm working at sitting with my emotions.  A technique introduced by my second counselor of staying with what I feel and allowing myself to feel it, instead of squashing my emotions with depression.  Sometimes it is easier to feel depressed then some of the other ugly emotions like rejected, used, jealousy, disappointment and a whole freaking long list of emotions that are freaking uncomfortable.  Depression is easier. 

I looked up 'sitting with your emotions' and Mr. Google sent back this link:

Time to refresh my memory on the importance of sitting with painful emotions and not brushing them aside or depressing them. 

Times like these.....Grumpy Cat appeals to me.


Evan said...

Thinking of you.

Ruth said...

Thanks Evan.

jessie said...

Ruth, it's been a bit since I've been to your blog (although I read most of what you write). Wanted you to know I'm thinking of you. And I know how it feels to sit with those emotions (rather than "use" depression). And it's hard.
And I wanted to remind you that, through these years, I've watched (read) you cycle through bad phases and come out the other side. I think you will this time too. Thinking of you and hoping you are feeling better.

Ruth said...

Thank you Jessie. I am getting my groove back and doing better.