My counselor took great pains to point out how often I lied to myself. All the soothing lies of "it's not that bad", "I'm just fine", "If I do the right things then they will love me." He carefully pointed out and underlined how messed up my life was and how bumbling I am in relationships. He then worked with me many long years trying to make me into a human that wouldn't accidentally or on purpose hurt other humans. Some days, I simply back off from all humans. I can't do it. Then morning comes. My alarm rings and God gives me another chance to show I am different. I am an old dog that can learn new tricks....that is what repentance is all about, second chances to do things differently. Often people cringe at the word repentance, I rejoice, Heavenly Father gave us a recipe for change and Christ made it possible for the process to work. I embrace repentance. I love the opportunity for me to make new beginnings. I believe that is the most joyous thing about the New Year it reminds everyone they have opportunities everyday to change and do things differently. I messed up in life, I'll mess up again. I'll go through the steps of first stop lying to myself. Admit how I messed up. Commit to change and set the change in motion. The older I get the more beautiful repentance becomes. However it all starts with rule number 1, stop lying especially to yourself.