One of the challenges of sharing my experience with dissociation is how I experienced is different than how other people experience the feelings. It is difficult to describe something that I barely understand myself. I came across an article that attempts to explain dissociation disorders. I read the link and found that some parts are very similar to what I feel but others are quite different. Treatment used with me was a combination of techniques honed by my counselors 30 years of experience and a PhD. I was still able to surprise him from time to time.