Night... Ugh! By the time I was 30 I was so far into sleep deprivation that the doctors didn't recognize it for what it was. It took me several years of counseling before I understood, I hated sleeping. In the night while sleeping is when my nightmares would be unleashed. How do you desensitize night? It comes every sundown. I once dreamed of sailing in a boat as the world turned to always stay in the light. I finally gave in and bought night lights so if I wake up, I know immediately where I am. Light can banish my nightmares. I still tend to stay up until I am bone, weary and as soon as my head hits the pillow I am asleep. Six hours later I am up and going again. This is a huge improvement from the 4 hours a night I used to do. Top it all off I have sleep apnea. I actually stop breathing during the night then wake up gasping for breath. I tried treatment but it involved having a mask on face. The third time I scratched up my face taking it off while I was still asleep, I decided that this was not going to work for me. What to do? What to do? I decided to redefine night and darkness. Darkness is the darkroom so I can develop film. Night is for awesome photographs and quiet time. Night is when the ants go away and stop eating my kitty's food. I am taking steps to redefine what night means to me.
DesignZZZ Shared some beautiful night pictures.
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