Matthew 19:26-25
25 When his disciples heard it, they were exceedingly amazed, saying, Who then can be saved?
26 But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.
I decided to go back to the original source of this quote, "With God all things are Possible." The disciples had asked about the young wealthy man that was told to give away all his riches and follow Christ. The young man went away sorrowing. Jesus went on to tell his disciples that it was easier for a camel to get through an eye of a needle* than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God. The disciples then asked the question in verse 25. "Who then can be saved?" I believe that sometimes we get caught up in the TV hype that all good things goes to the wealthy and well connected. The one thing I struggled with is feeling that I could not do what needed to be done. I felt that my lack made me worthless. I wasn't the smartest, I didn't understand people, I got mixed up by time, I could make massive lists of my faults and short comings. The over all message ~ I was insignificant and I was faced with an impossible task, living. Could Christ statement "with God all things are possible" apply to me?
Growing up I discovered one amazing talent. I am very good at math. I joke with people that if you can put anything into an equation, I will understand it. so here is my equation:
Infinity plus any number is Infinity.
1 + ∞ = ∞
me + God = Infinite
I can be the smallest fraction or a negative number but once I am with God, I become infinite.
I have learned over and over again that when I am faced with an insurmountable problem, pray, study, listen, and follow. My first impossible task was that I passed out daily and after several rounds of doctors no one had any answers for me. I prayed for help. I studied all I could about what seemed to be wrong with me. I would go to the library to get books and then I would hear in my mind "get this other book." The "other" book would hold another piece of the puzzle. After 7 years of studying and applying what I learned I was able to work full time. I had gone from being up 20 minutes a day to working a full time job. I did the impossible, but I know I didn't do it alone. With God, I could do anything. I then had cancer. With doctor's helps and God's help, I survived that, too. Then I started counseling. I believe that God led me to Kavincoach to be my counselor, but I still had to study, learn new ways of living, and follow new ways. To some, PTSD with DID is considered impossible. That's OK. It may be the hardest thing I have ever done. That's OK. With God, I can do anything.
*An eye of a needle is a tiny gate on one of the side walls of a city. In order for the camel to get through all of the burdens must be removed from his back. Follow the link for a picture of an eye of a needle.
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