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My journey out of the darkness of depression. How I changed from not just surviving but thriving.
Tuesday, April 19, 2016
Back to Basics
Reviewing the year in preparation for sharing my progress (or lack of) with my counselor. Dynamic crazy year. I experienced several bouts of illness that creamed me at crucial times when I wanted to be somewhere else. I couldn't visit the sick and share I don't know what type of germ plaguing me. I weathered finding out a friend wasn't a friend. I felt sad. Real sad. I lost two things my belief in myself knowing what a friend is and the imaginary friend. Not a total loss, I enjoyed time with the person but realize there were clues I ignored in my desire for friendship. I am doing things that I wouldn't believe I could do 3 years ago. I am growing in directions I didn't expect. Then my legs start to swell. Pain increases until I have to quit Karate for a couple of weeks. DH exclaims this is worse then ever...no it isn't. I went through this multiple times. One time the doctor checked for blood clots....nope. Try support hose....knees swelled so much I couldn't get my blue jeans off. Epic fail. This time I wasn't sewing. I stopped sewing for over a year because I thought that caused the swelling last time. I am learning that it is a combination of events - high stress, poor eating, sitting long periods of time. Back to basics. Move regularly during work sessions at the computer or sewing or any other sitting project. Remember I control every bite that goes into my mouth. Stress....well I quit everything except my job for a couple of weeks. Back to setting boundaries. Back to paying attention to what I eat and how much. Back to recognizing I can't fix the world, I can only change me. Back to basics, back to me.
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