Looking back...

Tonight I spent my time talking to KavinCoach by looking back.  Interesting thing about looking back is some times I need to, so I can move forward.  I reviewed a subject I have discussed many times but this time I actually organized my thoughts in a time line that covered over 40 years.  A thread ran through those years that warped and twisted my thinking.  I now have a new perspective on a lingering relationship that probably will not terminate any time soon.  I didn't think that just saying how I am influenced could alter how I view myself or past events.  KavinCoach asked me at the end if I felt better.  I didn't know.  But after thinking about this evening.  I think I can say yes.  I do.  Nothing was solved.  No plan of action made.  For me, it seems that in stating what I remember, I am accepting events that I chose to bury.  In the process of burying my feelings they didn't allow me to move forward. Looking back sometimes allows you to move forward.