This week I had an interesting learning experience during my karate class. I am learning a ground defense where I do a somersault kind of over my shoulder then stand back up. It's kind of like falling with so much momentum that you go over top over tail and stand up again. A bit scary for me. When I just go ALL IN, I can do it over and over. However, if I hesitate, I slow down just enough that instead of tumbling over I land hard with my elbow under my ribs. My body is still not happy with me today. A sharp elbow in the ribs leaves a lasting impression. There are some things that to get through you need to go ALL IN. I remind myself if there is no fear then there can be no courage. I feel fear but my courage is bigger than my fear. I didn't start out this way. I let fear win for a long time. My childhood was ruled by fear and manipulation. Anger is the easiest emotion for someone else to manipulate. I believe this is the reason I was cautioned by my counselor to recognize that anger is a secondary emotion, hurt, fear or frustration came first. Sometimes all three come and anger covers these other emotions. The ALL IN method was how I approached counseling. If I was going to change my life I was going to do it ALL IN. I did. I totally changed the way I function. For most of my life, I was 5 different people in one body trying to tag team my way through life. I am now one person that can see 5 different ways to tackle a problem. I left none of myself behind. I went ALL IN. In my experience, this takes Faith that some how I will get ahead. More than once I reminded myself that falling flat on my face was still moving forward.