Alexithymia - defined as a person that can not connect to their own emotions.
I felt emotions but tended to dissociate to where they were no longer available. Felt like my emotions were locked up and I lost the key to let them out.
I am thankful to KavinCoach and his persistence in getting me to connect back to my emotions. I'm also thankful for photography that let me express emotions that seemed locked up without words. Photos....no words required.