The day after 9/11 is a day to reflect. So many felt the bewilderment of "Why me, why did I survive and my loved one, coworker, fireman, police officer....or any other had to die?"
Survivor's guilt defined. http://www.thefreedictionary.com/survivor+guilt
This is one of the emotions that I am trying to work through. I am taking the advice of the article from one of the mass shootings and seeking professional help.
Band back together created a page of resources. I am posting it here so I know to go back and study more of the links. http://www.bandbacktogether.com/survivor-guilt-resources/
I don't have answers for this. I have questions and pain and sometimes the guilt is over whelming. Why was I let go? Was it as simply that I became too old or too numb?
Sometimes I feel it is my responsibility to stand up and say, "There is evil in the world. Those evil people want you to believe that they don't exist. Evil is real. I have witnessed it."
I have seen darkness, I am thankful for the Light of Christ. He is my champion.