Yup, I need this right now. I am reading several books about our thoughts making us who we are. I find the books fairly disturbing since my head is still trying to take out all the trashed dumped on me from childhood. I feel aggravated, no pissed off, when people declare that what happens to you as a child doesn't make any difference as an adult. I tend to agree if it were a single event but if a child is habitually abused the after affects can last a life time. Sometimes the effect is the person fighting not to be like their past. I like Poppy's ideas about turning ANTs into ARTs and her idea of HABITS gives me something to review.
I had a shake up at work and a reality check bounce this weekend. I decided to pull back and regroup. I came home exhausted tonight but worked out anyone. Bless sweet DH he cooked dinner tonight. I felt loved. I am going to turn my thoughts to finding healthy HABITS that will build me up instead of tearing me down. I am choosing to take what I learned in counseling and implement a campaign to be kind to myself. I realized that I do think about what I need now I need to put into action my good thoughts. I can change.....I've done a lot of changing and more is in my future.
|Looking for a new beat to march to.......|