Rarely is it recommended to keep fighting. However, people tell you to NEVER GIVE UP....which is sometimes the need to keep fighting. Spring break is a busy time for me. I am catching up on activities, tasks, and visiting that I don't have time to do when I am working. I am reading several blogs and Facebook posts about PTSD. I am more and more convinced that being friends with PTSD will not happen. I accept its existence in my life. I appreciate some of the skills I learned because of it. I understand that it is a learned reaction to extreme situations. I don't live in those extreme situations any more. However, if I try to coast and rest on my laurels, in no time, I am back sliding and spiraling downward. I would love to have a vacation from PTSD but I suspect like the Maisie bird in Horton Hatches an Egg, I wouldn't want to take up the load again. I don't have the option. I don't have to be big. I just need to keep fighting and never give up. I don't need to be big, just really determined.