Mile Stones

Mile stones are those defining moments when you realize you are finally going somewhere besides in circles.  They mark the path leading to....where ever it is you are wanting to go.  KavinCoach suggested a path called Thriving.  I had no idea where it would lead me.  The first thing I found out was I was walking with 4 others.  You know those three legged races where it is kind of awkward because of being tied to someone else.  Now imagine 5 people cuffed together trying to move forward.  Way hard.  (Some people that split into multiples choose to stay together for reasons of their own.  I have read enough other stories that I know this is a choice for some people.)  I chose to integrate.  I felt that I was born in one piece and I wanted to be back together in every sense of the word.  I hit that mile stone and realized all that did was now having me running through the same muck on the same path and I still wasn't getting where I thought I should be.  Discouragement.  Then I was taught better tools for living like assertiveness, healthy boundaries, negotiations, and many other skills that switching kept me from learning.  I have always imagined that I am trying to get out of a dark cave.  Too many times the light at the end of the tunnel was a train or an orc with a torch.  Either way I would get creamed.  Today for the first time I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and NewCounselor confirmed there's a light up above.  I can see it, I can feel its warmth, I feel terrific.