What have I done?

Look at a day when you are supremely satisfied at the end. It's not a day when you lounge around doing nothing; it's when you've had everything to do, and you've done it. Margaret Thatcher

This is the time when I review the past year and see what have I done? This year was adjusting to major changes in my life. All my children are now married and more grandkids are arriving. NewCounselor is now over a year old and we are continuing the work that I started with KavinCoach. I am blessed to have two excellent counselors.  My job took an abrupt change from working with photography teacher to now working with early childhood education teachers.  I gave several speeches in Toastmasters. I also started taking Zumba and other dance classes where my daughter teaches.  I slowed way down with my photography blog but I am including more of my pictures with this blog.  I spent quality time with adult kids, grandkids and friends.  I learned to use Facebook and enjoy keeping in touch with people around the world.  Pinterest is tugging for attention but it is fairly new for me and Christmas has kept me busy.  I feel I have grown in confidence and continue on my quest towards truth in living.  My health is a little rough this year, a few set backs in this department.  I will continue working this through my mind for the next few days and then begin my 'goals adjustments.' 

I gave up on resolutions years ago.  I hate the sound of breaking resolutions on January 2nd.  Plus, I have enough experience with severe depression to know that sometimes the goal for the day is to get out of bed.  The bonus is to get dressed.  If I actually showered between these two that meant for a great day.  During this time, an acquaintance that had beat cancer criticized my lack of will power.  She told me it is 'mind over matter.'  Well, after her little lecture I went home and decided that I would put the dishes away before the kids came home from school.  (Take note, I was not washing the dishes, I was just putting them away out of the dishwasher loaded by my kids.)  I didn't even finish emptying the top rack when I slid down the cupboards and laid on the floor until my son got home.  He took one look at me and told me to go back to bed.  I crawled back to bed.  That was the day I learned, "If you don't mind, it doesn't matter."  For years, my goal was to reclaim my life.  Then after going into counseling my goal was to integrate.  Now, I have a life.  I enjoy figuring out what I want to do with it.  I am looking forward to readjusting my goals for this next year. 

Reflecting