Acid Rain

There's only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that's your own self.

Aldous Huxley

Physical problems are a nuisance at best and a pain at worse but either way it gets you down. I noticed that once I am down an emotional hit is devastating. Ideally the idea is not to get down in the first place. So often, I heard an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure. Cliche that works except...when there is not one thing you can do to prevent what is happening.  A rough week compounded by stepping back into my own past.  Reviewed my past years from my new perspective of being a healthier self.  The effects of abuse shower down like acid rain damaging everything it touches. 
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Totally indiscriminate...not raining down on the source but on all around on everything and everyone that I come close to.  Fear of causing others harm by my presence tears at the foundation of every relationship.  NewCounselor is teaching me how to revisit my past and own it as my past.  What I do with it from there is the next several weeks lessons.  I am finding the approach quit different from simply reciting or remembering what happened.  Without emotion I can recite what happened like it happened to someone else.  Now it is much more personal of feeling the feelings that existed but hidden or denied to survive.  I will never be proud of my past but I can learn not to feel ashamed of it.  It is my past and the only one I get.  It belongs to me.