Toxic Abuse......

Reading about abuse and the consequences to the survivor I almost get the feeling that abuse only effects part of my life. Not true. The consequence effects every aspect of how I view myself, my lack of self confidence, my driving desire to prove myself, my relationships, my self talk, my whole life seems to be effected much like a neighborhood close to a toxic wasted plant that dumps pollution into the air, in the water, across the surface of my land scape. I am not the abuse, but it seems to stretch out in every direction suffocating me. Rough night ahead. I believe that things will be better in the morning. But this is now, what I am trying to believe is that there is something besides abuse in my life.