Took a break

Start of school is always stressful for me.  Add in medical tests and a few other things and my stress shot through the roof.  In some ways, I am healthier than I was a year ago.  In others, not so much.  I seem to be bent on eating back on all the weight I lost.  The only thing I feel encouraged about on that front is my clothes fit differently.  Seems working out is changing my shape if not my weight.  I am struggling and after school I had a spell.  I haven't had one for quite a while.  My 'spells', because I don't know what else they can be called, are like naps from hell.  I sort of pass out in whatever position I am in, sitting up, standing up, slumped over doesn't make any difference.  I sleep heavily then wake up feeling like my skin was scraped all over inside.  The skin is the largest organ in the body and it can hurt all at the same time.  These were the symptoms I took to the doctor since I was a teenager.  I always get the same answer, your blood test shows everything is normal.  Well I don't feel normal after having one of these. Took me a long time of studying medical journals to learn that medicine is a practice or an art with scientific backing but still a lot is not known about the human body.  There is a powerful connection between emotional, spiritual, and physical states.  I stayed home and rested.  I'm tempted to call into work tomorrow since it is a half day and not much is accomplished.  But I want to save my sick days for bad days not annoying days.  Or days when kids are visiting or traveling with DH.  I am feeling a bit better now but need to get some more sleep soon.  Breath deep.  Focus on now.....what am I looking at?  What do I feel under my feet?  What does the chair feel like that I am sitting in?  How do my fingers feel tapping the keys?  Focus on now is an effective way to get out of my worry head and settle down for sleep.  Good night.

Mammoth Springs, beautiful and deadly.