One of the things I wished with all my heart is that when our kids were growing up; I worried less and enjoyed more the moments, the heart beats, the days challenges of busy years. I am working on it now.
This is the holiday season, a time of challenges, triggers, tough memories, an occasional flashbacks that make this particularly difficult. I posted on here before survival guides for the holidays.
This time I am sharing a poem my daughter shared as she enjoyed the Zoo lights with her sons. She is right, I am wishing we could have one more time together, one more hug, one more story time, one more of so many things. Mostly I wish each of them joy in the celebration of Christ.
The Last Time (author unknown)From the moment you hold your baby in your arms you will never be the sameYou might long for the person you were before when you had freedom and time and nothing in particular to worry aboutYou will know tiredness like you never knew it before days will run into days that are exactly the same full of feedings and burpingNappy changes and cryingWhining and fightingNaps or a lack of napsIt might seem like a never-ending cycleBut don't forget...There is a last time for everythingThere will come a time when you will feed your baby for the very last timeThey will fall asleep on you after a long day and it will be the last time you ever hold your sleeping childOne day you will carry them on your hip then set them down and never pick them up that way againYou will scrub their hair in the bath for one last time and from that day on they will want to bathe aloneThey will hold your hand to cross the roadThen will never reach for it againThey will creep into your room at midnight for cuddles and it will be the last night you ever wake to thisOne afternoon you will sing "the wheels on the bus" and do all the actions then never sing them that song againThey will kiss you goodbye at the school gateThe next day they will ask to walk to the gate aloneYou will read a final bedtime story and wipe your last dirty faceThey will run to you with arms raised for the very last time.The thing is, you won't even know it's the last time until there are no more times. And even then, it will take you a while to realize.
So while you are living in these times, remember there are only so many of them and when they are gone, you will yearn for just one more day