I believe I'm about to gain a better understanding of these up close and personal. I'm angry. Surprisingly the thing that I am angry about is people throwing away opportunities to grow. I understand where my thoughts are coming from but the emotion is still there and very powerful. I know one of the stages is anger. Great, I arrived. Not so great, I arrived. Interesting thing is when I looked it up, the psychologist are not agreeing on stages of grief. Some say 5 and some say 7 while others mention only 3. I believe the one thing they all agree on is every person proceeds through the process of grieving differently. I am not surprised that I proceeded to anger very quickly. It is my go to reaction to stuff I don't understand. Rather than outwardly chastising the entire World for not doing what I think they should do. I am examining my own choice being in line with what I am feeling. Am I taking the opportunities presented to me to improve my life. Am I making healthy choices on how to address and feel my grief. Today, I chose to stay home. I tried going out and realized I am not in the state of mind conducive to being kind and tolerant of others or myself. I took a long nap. I feel more at peace now.
My daughter shared this on Facebook and I am thinking a lot about what is in me when I get shook up.
Anger is a part that is showing up right now. Stayed home to protect those around me. I need to go to school tomorrow. Heavy sigh. I will work at parking my unreasonable expectations out with my car when I go inside.
One of the articles I read when I looked up the stages of grief gave a perspective that fits with my opinion. I like finding someone that agrees with me:
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/supersurvivors/201707/why-the-five-stages-grief-are-wrong
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