Wowser

Wowser - It's been a while since I've written here.  I am writing more on my PTSD page but even there is a lot less frequently.  I am doing several large projects.  Even when I am not actively working on something for it I feel the weight of the responsibility and more than a little overwhelmed.  I asked DH (darling husband) if I was over reacting to events.  Like Kavin Coach, he put his finger on his nose indicating I was exactly right that I was overreacting.  I wonder if I should tell DH that when my counselor put his finger on his nose like that I had this huge urge to punch him?  Hoping it is a once and will go away if I ignore him.  Or I just won't ask questions like that.  More likely the second one.

I finished another large project at school barely in time to go to the competition.  Two students worked together to write a book addressing how a 7 year old child would react to a baby sister coming two months early.  Illustrated and written in Spanish and English they did an awesome job.  I want to show the book to a couple of the hospitals to see if they would be interested in a kid book written by teenagers that helps them connect with questions they have with what is happening.  I am so proud of the students and teacher bringing the pictures and story together.  My job was to get the pictures scanned and into book formatting.  No easy task when the computer fights you every inch of the way.  I am happy it is done but feeling the let down of, "Now What?"  One of my challenges is feeling unwanted and I associate feeling wanted with having a task to do.  No task then no body wants me.  I totally know this is illogical and wonky thinking but who said PTSD is logical?